I’m hoping to move into my brother’s within the next week.
The landlord of the apartment had no issues with my self-employment or lack of money at the moment. I explained the situation to him and he’s willing to work with me. I’m going to try and get him a deposit per my dad’s generosity and he’s said he will hold the place for a couple weeks until I’ve got the first month’s rent. All I’d need to do is move my bed, work table and fabric to my brother’s for a little while and work my ass off there until I’ve got the money. The landlord even said he’d prorate the rent for me since I’d only be there for like a week and a half in April. I’m going to do my best to not spend a lot. I will be cutting a lot of costs living over there and I think it will help me a lot.
And of course I need to sell my bike.
That would get rid of 2 of my credit card debts completely. Then I would only have 1.
I’m going to get my bike up on eBay Classifieds as well for a little more exposure. I have to do everything I can to sell this thing.
My husband was up all night with his best friend again last night. I was up from about 3 AM to 4:30AM tossing and turning while all I can hear are drumbeats of music and sporadic loud laughter and singing. I finally got tired of it and went downstairs to look for my earplugs. (My brother gave them to me a while back when I had to share a room with my mom at a hotel…he knows she snores loudly and thought they might be of use to me.) I did find them. Went to the bathroom to wash them off, making it fully clear that I was awake and not happy. Then went back upstairs and was soon dead to the world in a beautiful silence. I let shithead know I was pissed at him the next day and that he was not to speak to me. He says he’s sorry. He’s not sorry. He said he was sorry last time he did this. So if he really was sorry, he wouldn’t keep doing it. He doesn’t give a shit about me.
I’m just overly ready to move on with my life.
Coconut Oatmeal with Yogurt and Mango
Made half a cup of oatmeal with half coconut milk and half water, plopped on a ton of greek yogurt and diced half a mango and threw it on top. Tossed a little unsweetened coconut on all of that. Perfect little morning pick-me-up that was quick and easy! This way I could get straight to work and not worry about the fact that there are 2 dipshits in the house that I’d rather avoid.
Quinoa and Tuna Salad
Quinoa with tuna, peas, corn, diced red pepper, tomatoes, celery and a little onion with apple cider vinegar, olive oil and splash of lemon juice. S&P to taste and a big dollop of cottage cheese on top. Brilliant! Light, fresh, GREAT for a pre-workout with tons of protein! I couldn’t have been happier!
I’ve made this before, though I liked the second version from the weed website more (without the weed), but it required yogurt and I am out now! So I used this one:
- (SERVES 4)
- 2-3 chicken breasts, cut into 2 inch-long pieces (chicken thigh works too)
- 1 red bell pepper, OR 1 sweet red pepper
- 1/4 cup oil for pan-frying
- 1 cup all-purpose flour (or rice flour) mixed with 1/2 tsp. salt
- 1/4 to 1/2 cup fresh coriander
- Optional: extra 1/2 to 1 mango, cut into chunks (to finish the dish)
- Optional: 3-4 Tbsp. coconut milk OR water
- MANGO SAUCE:
- 2 fresh ripe mangos, fruit scooped out (or substitute 2 cups frozen or canned mango)
- 1 red chili, de-seeded and diced, OR 1 tsp. chili sauce OR 1/2 tsp. dried crushed chili
- 1 Tbsp. rice vinegar (OR white or apple cider)
- 1+1/2 Tbsp. soy sauce
- 2 Tbsp. fish sauce
- juice of 1/2 lime
- 1 Tbsp. brown sugar
- 1 thumb-size piece galangal OR ginger, sliced
- 3 cloves garlic
- 1/4 tsp. turmeric
- 2 kaffir lime leaves, snipped into slivers with scissors (discard stem & central vein), OR zest of 1 lime
- Place all ‘Mango Sauce’ ingredients in a food processor or blender. Process well, until more or less smooth.
- Taste-test the sauce. The goal is to reach a balance of sweet, sour, spicy, and salty. Add more sugar if you find the sauce too sour (this will depend on the sweetness of your mangoes). If not spicy enough, add more chili. If not salty/flavorful enough, add more fish sauce. If too salty or too sweet, add more lime juice. Set aside.
- Stir the flour and salt together and place in a mixing-type bowl. Add the chicken pieces and turn or gently stir them to coat.
- Heat a wok or frying pan over medium-high heat. Add the oil, then begin frying the chicken pieces. Fry 3-5 minutes per side, or until light golden brown and cooked through. Remove chicken from pan and set on paper towel, or a clean surface.
- Wash out the wok/frying pan, or use another (clean) one. Set over medium-high heat and add the mango sauce plus red pepper. Bring to a gentle boil, then reduce to a simmer (medium to low heat). If sauce becomes too thick, add 3-4 Tbsp. water or coconut milk. Simmer 3-4 minutes, or until pepper has softened slightly but still retains some crispness.
- Add the fried chicken pieces, gently stirring them in to cover with sauce. If desired, add chunks of mango (fruit of 1/2 to 1 ripe mango) too. Simmer briefly, just until everything is hot.
- Do a final taste-test for salt (tasting the sauce together with the chicken). Add a little more fish sauce or chili if desired.
- Transfer to a serving dish. Sprinkle with fresh coriander and serve with plenty of Thai jasmine-scented rice. Or, for an extra special treat, with my Easy Coconut Rice.
*I did not fry my chicken in flour. I sliced it up and seared it in oil for a few minutes. Removed it. Then stir fried some onions, red pepper and shiitake mushrooms. I blended all the sauce ingredients in a food processor and dumped them in after the onions were translucent. I cooked this down for a little while. Re-added the chicken and added extra mango cubes. I served this on a little sticky rice. One of my favorites! VERY yum!
One of my TV loves, Alton Brown, is on another diet. It’s INCREDIBLY fascinating for me to watch. He Twitters his weight every morning (kind of like I used to do on here) and what he’s eating and whatnot. He says he’s “disgusting” at 175 and wants to lose 10 lbs so he can fit into his tux more comfortably. It’s just absolutely fascinating for me to see someone I admire and look up to, a man nonetheless (proving this is not simply an “unrealistic female-standard” problem) whom I think is gorgeous and totally fuckable as-is, with the same damn body issues as I have. It actually makes me feel better about me, to know that we really are all in this together and that things are going to be fine if we can just gain a little self-confidence. I just have to look at ME the way I look at HIM and say “YES! I too am fuckable as-is!”
Somehow, I still feel it works.
Exercise: 1/2 hour of yoga, a little over 1 hour at the gym