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Has my ED turned into something else?

I seem to have thrown all cares out the window when it comes to eating anymore.

I don’t order the lowest-calorie thing I see on the menu. I order what I’m “in the mood for”. Like a normal person?

I make crazy meals and huge portions and eat it all.

I haven’t counted one calorie since….holy crap it’s probably been 7 months.

But maybe this is some sort of weird binge stage? Maybe since I have a guy who seems to love me no matter what and we LOVE food and I feel happy and accepted…I’m not so worried about it anymore?

I don’t want to gain weight, but I’m sure I have. I mean, I have to be. My clothes all still fit the same and I still get LOTS of exercise since I have to walk everywhere, but I haven’t weighed myself in months and months, so I have no idea what I weigh. Theory suggests I weigh more though.

Is it possible to eat more “normally” like this and NOT gain a ton of weight?

I am confused.

Breakfast:

Sourdough Bread French Toast with Banana Raisin Maple Syrup

French toast is a no-brainer. The syrup however was made with banana slices caramelized in butter, maple syrup and raisins.

Lunch:

PB&J with homemade Applesauce

Just so you know, almost every time I have a sandwich I also munch on an extra slice of bread. I love bread. I’ve missed it so much.

Dinner:

I’m going to be honest….I’m thinking back a few days here and cannot remember what I had for dinner on this day. I have no picture of whatever it was, so I am assuming I went out and was silly and forgot my camera. I am shocked that I can’t remember.

Which is another prime example of why I feel I may have a totally new problem. I can no longer remember what I ate from day to day. I used to know EVERYTHING that I put into my stomach. I feel it’s a slippery slope from there to not even remembering what I ate. A slope back to being fat. I need to fix this immediately…

 

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Phantom Thursday

I really don’t have much of an update for today. Nothing exciting happened. I only got 1 picture of food. It was just sort of a lazy day. I at least did good with not overeating a bunch of junk and sweets today. I had breakfast and lunch, but forgot to take pictures. It was just cereal for breakfast and I ate a bunch of samples at one of the local grocery stores for lunch. One again, nothing exciting.

But I have to update this every day. So I am.

I DID run into my sister-in-law at the grocery store. She gave me a small bag of veggies, one of which I’d never had before: kohlrabi. So I experimented with it a bit!

Dinner:

Curry Stir Fry

1 large Kohlrabi, diced
1/2 large Carrot, sliced
4 or 5 large Mushrooms, cut into large chunks
1/4 small Onion, sliced
1 clove Garlic, minced
Grated Ginger
Tomato Paste
Rice Vinegar
Fennel seeds
Mustard seeds
Turmeric
Curry Powder
Cumin
S&P to taste

I just sorta stir fried all this together. Nothing really complicated about what I did. No idea how much of everything I put in, just made it to taste. ^_^ It turned out really good!

Perhaps tomorrow will be more exciting.

Exercise: 5 mile walk

Car?

Today I was supposed to have my car fixed! I had all these plans to go dancing and just be generally happy and awesome. Nothing ever works out that way though. Ever. The problems turns out to be a lot bigger than what I’d originally thought. And of course this entails more money that I don’t have. No car yet for me. Going to have to learn the bus schedule for the winter! Maybe this will teach me to fare better in cold weather since I will have to walk everywhere still.

At least breakfast was pretty awesome:

Gingerbread Muffins with Lemon Glaze

Taken from: http://www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/Gingerbread-Muffins-with-Lemon-Glaze-104480

yield: Makes 16 gingerbread muffins

Ingredients

2 3/4 cups all purpose flour
2 1/2 teaspoons baking soda
1 tablespoon plus 1/2 teaspoon ground ginger
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/8 teaspoon ground cloves
1/2 teaspoon salt

1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter, room temperature
1/2 cup plus 2 tablespoons sugar
2 large eggs
3/4 cup mild-flavored light molasses
1 1/3 cups cold water

Lemon glaze

1 3/4 cups powdered sugar
5 tablespoons fresh lemon juice

Whipped cream (optional)

Preparation

For gingerbread muffins:
Preheat oven to 350°F. Lightly butter 16 standard (1/3-cup) muffin cups. Whisk flour, baking soda, ginger, cinnamon, cloves and salt in medium bowl to blend.

Using electric mixer, beat unsalted butter and sugar in large bowl to blend. Add large eggs and beat to blend. Beat in light molasses. Add half of dry ingredients, beating until blended. Beat in remaining dry ingredients. Gradually add 1 1/3 cups cold water and beat until incorporated. Divide batter equally among 16 prepared muffin cups.

Bake gingerbread until tester inserted into center comes out clean, about 25 minutes. Transfer to rack and cool 10 minutes. Remove muffins from pan and place on rack over sheet of foil.

For lemon glaze:
Whisk powdered sugar and lemon juice in small bowl until smooth. Spoon lemon glaze over tops of warm muffins, using about 1 tablespoon glaze for each.

Serve muffins warm with whipped cream, if desired, or at room temperature.

*While these were not bad, I would make them completely differently given a second round. I was thinking there was simply some secret that I didn’t know about with adding the cold water at the end. Well, just as expected it made these somewhat bland and dense. I later found out a LOT of people substituted buttermilk for the water. I personally would have also added the buttermilk with the rest of the wet ingredients instead of at the end. The muffin method of mixing dictates that you ought to leave lumps and bumps in your batter and not to overmix it. Well, its awfully hard not to overmix when you mix it, then add liquid and mix it again. Makes for an awfully dense muffin. So no more of that! Otherwise, these weren’t bad. I would try them again!

Lunch:

I skipped lunch today due to the fact that I’d eaten 5 muffins.

Dinner:

G and I were invited to a friend’s house for dinner. We had salad with walnuts, sunflower seeds and fat free raspberry vinaigrette and spaghetti with a choice of meat sauce or vegetarian sauce. I tried and loved both. Curiously enough, so did G, even though there were things in the veggie sauce that he claims to not be particularly fond of. My friends loved him and he loved them! I am glad he’s liking all of my close friends! I’d remembered to bring my camera, but forgot to take pictures.

Being the terrible people we are, G and I went to get milkshakes afterwards. It was of course awesome.

This night was hard though. I finally confronted G about why he won’t stay with me. And I wanted to know the real reason. He gives me all these little excuses that I can shoot down pretty easily. I need to know why. He explained that he didn’t want whatever we do in OUR relationship to affect my divorce proceedings. It turns out he knows nothing. Absolutely nothing. About why I’m getting divorced. What my ex-idiot had done. If I was even actually divorced yet or still only separated. So I explained to him everything. And I didn’t want to. I really didn’t. I hate talking about my ex to him. But HE needs to know and it’s incredibly unfair for me to be keeping all of this from him.

I explain that he had an affair. That the affair was thanks for the huge list of other things I’d supported him through. His depression, including 2 suicide attempts. His year of unemployment. His drinking. His felony charges. His DUI. The multiple other attempts to cheat on me in the past. I mean, the list just goes on and on. He had no idea. He of course said that he couldn’t understand why anyone would do that to me and I deserved so much better. I told him that’s why I like him. “Because you don’t treat me like shit,” and at this point I can’t help but start crying. I hate showing weakness. He tells me he loves me. Which was the very first time he’s said it without an initial prompt from yours truly. I am the happiest girl in the world.

He leaves at 5 AM. Which is fine. He doesn’t have to be at work in the morning.

Tease

Today kinda sucked.

I didn’t have to be at work till noon which was sort of cool. But I only got to see G for a total of not even 5 minutes before he had to go. That suuuuuuuucked. It sucked.

Such a tease.

I was actually a little depressed afterwards.

Also, I was supposed to get my car fixed this morning by a coworker. He had to reschedule for tomorrow. It’s ok, he’s a busy man. He works 2 jobs and has a family and whatnot. So I don;t mind. He’s incredibly kind to even offer at all. So I can wait!

Bah. Time for food!

Breakfast:

Raisin Bran.

I had Italian Wedding Soup at work. Forgot a picture. 😦

Dinner:

Angel Hair with White Wine Lemon Sauce (attempt #2)

MUCH better this time! So this recipe is worth posting.

I had it all written out and then WordPress decided to be a dick. Here’s the gist.

White Wine
Butter
Lemon Juice
Milk
Chopped Onion
Minced Garlic
Thyme
S&P
Corn Starch

Cook all that together.

Done and done! You win! Seriously though, I can’t remember what amounts I put in of these. Use however much of each that you like until it is of your desired taste and thickness!

Exercise: 4 mile walk

Non-fucked-up Meatless Monday! YAY!

I feel like its been a couple weeks since I did this right. Things have been throwing me off. I think the point is that I make a conscious effort to go at least 1 day a week without eating meat, but the truth is, I only actually eat meat maybe 2 or 3 days a week and everything else is vegetarian. So I think I’m doing just fine on that part, but I will always try to keep my Monday’s specifically meatless!

Breakfast:

Carrot Cake Breakfast Cookies

Taken from: http://www.cookiemadness.net/2008/03/carrot-cake-breakfast-cookies/

1 cup white whole wheat or all purpose flour (4 ½ oz)
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon cinnamon
1/3 cup vegetable oil
3 tablespoons granulated sugar
1/3 cup packed dark brown sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla
1 large egg
1/2 teaspoon grated orange zest
1/2 cup oats, old fashioned or quick (not instant)
2/3 cup shredded or grated carrots
1/3 to 1/2 cup raisins
1/3 cup toasted, chopped pecans or walnuts

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.

In a small bowl, thoroughly mix together the flour, baking powder, salt and cinnamon; set aside

In a large bowl, mix together the oil, granulated sugar, dark brown sugar and vanilla. When well mixed, add the egg and orange zest and beat for another 20-30 seconds. Add the flour mixture to the sugar mixture and stir until flour is absorbed. Stir in oats, carrots, raisins and nuts.

Using a ¼ cup measure, scoop up big mounds of dough – they should be a bit larger than golf balls, but quite smaller than tennis balls.

Place on ungreased or Silpat or parchment-lined cookie sheets and bake for 20 minutes.

Makes 8 big cookies

*These were….AMAZING. I mean it! They were so fantastic, you will never believe! I LOVED them! I will be making them again super soon, I made 4 and I ate them all! And SO PRETTY!

Lunch:

One more feta, pesto and tomato sammich! Had just a little more pesto to use up!

Dinner:

This was just carrots, peas and corn on vermicelli noodles with a white wine lemon sauce that I actually think I’d like to attempt again tomorrow as this dish didn’t quite work out as I’d hoped. I will post a recipe for the sauce in the next post if it works out better!

 

I just really worked all day today. Had a nice giggly conversation with G at some point during the day. He astounds me. My co-worker is coming over tomorrow morning before I go to work to try and fix my car. I’m RALLY excited about the prospect of having my car back as I can go dancing again and I could visit G in his town instead of him traveling an hour to get me, an hour back to his town, an hour to drop me off and an hour to drive back home again. Sheesh…poor guy. He must really like me a lot. ^_^

Friends walking in on you naked

Well, I sort of invite that sort of thing. Being that I leave my doors unlocked and all.

It started off normally enough with breakfast:

Pineapple and Yogurt on Cardamom Oatmeal

I made oatmeal with milk and pineapple juice instead of water, then I added brown sugar, a pinch of salt and a large pinch of cardamom. I topped it with some pineapple chunks and a big dollop of greek yogurt. Indulgent!!!

Lunch:

Boring PB&J. But always yummy!

Dinner:

While it doesn’t look like it, this is one of my go-to easy recipes with BBQ sauce and honey mustard!

BBQ and Honey Mustard Stir Fry

Adapted from: http://www.frenchs.com/recipe/honey-mustard-bbq-chicken-stir-fry-RE0476

Ingredients:

1 box (10 ounces) couscous pasta

1 pound boneless skinless chicken, cut into strips (No chicken, so I used mushrooms and peas!)

1 medium red bell pepper, cut into thin strips

1 medium onion, sliced

1/3 cup FRENCH’S® Honey Dijon Mustard or FRENCH’S® Honey Mustard

1/3 cup CATTLEMEN’S® Award Winning Classic Barbecue Sauce

Directions:

Prepare couscous according to package directions. Keep warm.

Heat 1 tablespoon oil in large nonstick skillet over medium-high heat. Stir-fry chicken in batches 5 to 10 minutes until or until browned. Transfer to bowl. Drain fat.

Heat 1 tablespoon oil in same skillet until hot. Stir-fry vegetables 3 minutes until crisp-tender. Return chicken to skillet. Stir in 2/3 cup water, mustard and barbecue sauce. Heat to boiling, stirring often. Serve over couscous.

*This is a good comfort food for me for some reason. I just love BBQ sauce! I also wanted to be sure to EAT something just in case G came over after work and we’d end up going out “just for coffee” but would end up ordering food as well…if I go when I’m not hungry hopefully I’ll hold off on the food ordering!

I took a shower after dinner (once again, just in case) and had music up somewhat loud. While I was in my room trying to find something to wear, a close friend of mine walks into my apartment. I don’t hear her at all as my music is too loud, so she has to yell at me to get my attention! I decide I might as well thrown on a towel (even though with this friend it TOTALLY doesn’t even matter) and we sit at my kitchen table and talk for a few minutes. She decides she wants to go crash my work and steal G since he’ll be getting out of there in about an hour. We go and he is absolutely delighted to see us! It always makes me so happy to be around him! He tells me how much he’s missed me and how he was hoping I would visit or put a note on his car. I like very much that we can share these things with each other now! We ask him if he’d like to get coffee with us after he gets out of work. He accepts and meets us later at the restaurant. He and my friend get along wonderfully! We have a fabulous time and chat late into the night.

My friend eventually has to leave and asks G if it is ok for him to take me home. (Of course it is.) So he and I hang out for a while longer talking and talking and talking. You can’t get us to shut the hell up. The only 2 things that have consistently worked to get us to stop talking is good food or making out. And even that second part is a bit inconsistent on the conversational part…sometimes we talk while we’re doing that too…

He leaves around 5. He of course won’t stay. I of course don’t understand why.

Money woes

I keep spending my money on things I shouldn’t be spending my money on.

I have rent due in a week. I simply do not have enough for it. So I am freaking out slightly.

I shouldn’t, because whenever I desperately need money, that seems to be the time I start selling the most stuff. And then everything is okay. But until then, I freak out entirely.

I’ll be okay. I just need to work harder. And eat better to keep my energy up!

Breakfast:

Perfectly Crispy Waffles with Mango Syrup and fresh Diced Mango

Waffles:

Taken from: http://buffaloeats.org/2010/02/08/cookin-with-walt-amazing-restaurant-quality-crispy-waffles/

INGREDIENTS:

  • ½ cup AP FLOUR
  • ¼ cup Traditional WHOLE WHEAT FLOUR
  • ¼ cup CORN STARCH
  • 1 TBSP GROUND FLAX MEAL (optional but good for you)
  • ¼ tsp BAKING SODA
  • ½ tsp BAKING POWDER
  • ½ tsp SALT
  • 2 tsp CANE SUGAR  (use refined sugar if you don’t have cane sugar)
  • 1 cup BUTTERMILK (or buttermilk substitute)
  • 1/3 cup SMART BALANCE OIL (you have to use oil and this is probably the healthiest)
  • 1 EGG (lightly beaten)
  • 1 tsp VANILLA EXTRACT (You can use two if you like)

PREPARATION:

Thoroughly mix all of the dry ingredients.  Add the wet ingredients to the dry and mix thoroughly but don’t over mix.  Let it sit for 15 minutes and give it a couple of stirs.   Let it sit for 15 more minutes

Here is a punch list of techniques to guarantee success:

  • Preheat the iron
  • Do not spray the iron with non stick spray.  Plenty of oil in the recipe
  • Fill the bottom of the iron with the correct amount of batter which will differ based on the model.
  • Close the cover and leave it alone.  Some irons have a light that says it is done.  It is not done.  The waffle will steam a lot.  When the steam slows down to barely steaming the waffle is done.  You can now open it and check.  It should be medium dark golden brown.  It steam turns to smoke you waited too long.
  • Close the iron for a minute between waffles and let it recover.
  • You can heat an oven to 200 and keep your waffles in there for a bit if you are making a lot ahead of time.  Don’t stack them on top of each other and don’t cover them or they will get soft.

DO NOT SKIP ANY PART OF THIS RECIPE! If you need to make buttermilk, the substitution stated in the directions works incredibly well. I used full fat milk instead of skim and was VERY pleasantly surprised with the results! So any milk will work great! LET THE BATTER SIT for the allotted amount of time! If you can, also let your buttermilk substitution sit in the fridge for half an hour to an hour before using to allow it to thicken.

Mango Syrup:

Pureed mango + pineapple juice
Equal part sugar
Water to adjust thickness of syrup

Heat this mixture in a saucepan until sugar is dissolved and syrup is of desired consistency, adding water when necessary.

INCREDIBLE! FANTASTIC! FINALLY a crispy waffle!!! It only took like 10 attempts and different recipes to get it, BUT I GOT IT! I will be saving this and recommend it to absolutely everyone!!!

Lunch:

Pesto, Tomato and Feta Cheese Sandwich

Since I had such an eccentric breakfast, I went for a much more simple lunch! I used some of the leftover pesto from the night before, spread a thick layer onto bread, sliced up some tomato and laid that on the other slice, topped it with a drizzle of olive oil and a little crumbled feta, and PRESTO! One of the best sammiches I’ve ever made!!!

Dinner:

Alton Brown’s Baked Mac & Cheese

Taken from: http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/alton-brown/baked-macaroni-and-cheese-recipe/index.html

Ingredients

  • 1/2 pound elbow macaroni
  • 3 tablespoons butter
  • 3 tablespoons flour
  • 1 tablespoon powdered mustard
  • 3 cups milk
  • 1/2 cup yellow onion, finely diced
  • 1 bay leaf
  • 1/2 teaspoon paprika
  • 1 large egg
  • 12 ounces sharp cheddar, shredded
  • 1 teaspoon kosher salt
  • Fresh black pepper

Topping:

  • 3 tablespoons butter
  • 1 cup panko bread crumbs

Directions

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.

In a large pot of boiling, salted water cook the pasta to al dente.

While the pasta is cooking, in a separate pot, melt the butter. Whisk in the flour and mustard and keep it moving for about five minutes. Make sure it’s free of lumps. Stir in the milk, onion, bay leaf, and paprika. Simmer for ten minutes and remove the bay leaf.

Temper in the egg. Stir in 3/4 of the cheese. Season with salt and pepper. Fold the macaroni into the mix and pour into a 2-quart casserole dish. Top with remaining cheese.

Melt the butter in a saute pan and toss the bread crumbs to coat. Top the macaroni with the bread crumbs. Bake for 30 minutes. Remove from oven and rest for five minutes before serving.

Remember to save leftovers for fried Macaroni and Cheese.

*I of course modified this slightly. I used Monterrey Jack cheese instead of Cheddar and I used cream cheese in the place of some of the milk to make it even cheesier and creamier. CRAZY!!! Luckily I could only eat half of this! I’m getting better with my portions, but I also find myself sort of wanting to automatically eat make 2 servings of meals now since I feel I will have to start getting used to it? If that makes sense. I’m so so so glad to have a man who loves my cooking!!!!!

I walked a lot today. I got a lot of work done as well, 2 projects finished and sent! Long day, but look at all the great food that came out of it! This is what my blog is supposed to be! I’m so happy!

Exercise: 5 mile walk