Goddamn do those two correlate like a son of a bitch.
What do you do when you’re depressed? Eat more? Eat less? More or less likely to purge?
Dear God I had a terrible morning.
Because he had a terrible morning.
I have no idea what’s going on or why he’s so sad today. Possibly for a similar reason as before. But he is just SO sad. And I absolutely fall the fuck apart.
I don’t eat breakfast.
I don’t eat lunch.
I was so depressed I became somewhat comatose. Another coworker kept asking me what was wrong and I kept staring off into space completely unable to answer. My head would say “She asked you a question. You really should answer her. Why aren’t you answering her?” But I would just…….stare.
Wondering if I’d done something wrong. Wondering if we were okay. Wondering if there was anything at all I could say or do to fix everything.
Things do get better.
I actually get 3 missed phone calls while I am out shopping, all (basically) just to make sure I’m okay.
So I eat dinner.
Tuna Pasta Salad
1 can of Tuna
Corn, cut off of small cobd
1/3 cup Peas
Diced Vadalia Onion
1 small Carrot, sliced
Dash of Apple Cider Vinegar
1/2 t Dill Weed
Big shake of Paprika
Fresh chopped Thyme
Pasta of your choice (I made garden rotini)
Basically make the pasta, and then mix in all of the other ingredients. I did use frozen peas, so I let those cook with the pasta to unthaw them. This was actually amazingly good! I didn’t eat it all as I was still a bit unnecessarily worrisome. I ate a little more than half of it. I did have a little ice cream too. I am now out of ice cream.
I do feel a lot better.
But not enough to warrant eating properly. Maybe I will tomorrow.
Exercise: About a 5 mile walk.