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Accidental cake

Yes, I seem to have accidentally made a cake this morning.

Breakfast:

Well you see, these were SUPPOSED to be “bars”, but as I made a half recipe that wouldn’t fill a sheet pan, I had to make it in something else. This cake pan was too small for all the batter I had, so it turned more into a cake than bars!

Oatmeal, Banana, Applesauce Bars

Taken from: http://www.yummly.com/recipe/Oatmeal_-Banana_-Applesauce-Bars-Recipezaar

Ingredients Serves 5
1 12 cups all-purpose flour
1 tsp baking soda
12 tsp salt
1 tsp cinnamon
34 cup melted butter (cooled)
1 cup brown sugar
12 cup sugar

34 cup applesauce
2 eggs
1 tsp vanilla
3 cups old fashioned oats
2 12 bananas (smashed)
1 Preheat oven to 350°.
2 Spray 9×13-inch pan with cooking spray.
3 Combine: flour, baking soda, salt, cinnamon in bowl set aside.
4 Combine: sugars, and butter and beat with mixer till well blended.
5 Add applesauce, eggs, and vanilla beat with mixer till smooth.
6 Add bananas with mix and mash by hand or with mixer (I’ve done both).
7 Stir in flour mixture till just combined.
8 Stir in oats.
9 Pour into greased pan.
10 Bake till golden brown, about 20-30 minutes depending on oven.
11 Cool and cut into bars!

*Picture shows how much of this cake I ate for breakfast. I took the rest to my brother’s house where me, him, my sister in law and their 2 friends ate the rest of it. I was happy to spread the joy as this cake was downright delectable! Make this recipe, it is quite good! I had no butter at the time, so I ended up subbing vegetable oil, and man am I glad I did! This cake was so moist!

Lunch:

PB&J.

Dinner:

My brother, sister in law, their friend, G, and I all went to see the Avengers! Again! We stopped at a restaurant for drinks and a couple appetizers.  I had a dark stout with 1 pretzel breadstick and 2 large shrimp. After the movie, we had pumpkin beer tasting at my brother’s (and of course the rest of that cake). We played game and munched on gummy bears and trail mix. When I went home, I had ice cream. So my evening was sort of…inconsistent with food. I didn’t have much of a real dinner. I just did a lot of snacking, which is not something I normally do.

At least I didn’t have to eat all of that cake.

Exercise: 5 mile walk

Has my ED turned into something else?

I seem to have thrown all cares out the window when it comes to eating anymore.

I don’t order the lowest-calorie thing I see on the menu. I order what I’m “in the mood for”. Like a normal person?

I make crazy meals and huge portions and eat it all.

I haven’t counted one calorie since….holy crap it’s probably been 7 months.

But maybe this is some sort of weird binge stage? Maybe since I have a guy who seems to love me no matter what and we LOVE food and I feel happy and accepted…I’m not so worried about it anymore?

I don’t want to gain weight, but I’m sure I have. I mean, I have to be. My clothes all still fit the same and I still get LOTS of exercise since I have to walk everywhere, but I haven’t weighed myself in months and months, so I have no idea what I weigh. Theory suggests I weigh more though.

Is it possible to eat more “normally” like this and NOT gain a ton of weight?

I am confused.

Breakfast:

Sourdough Bread French Toast with Banana Raisin Maple Syrup

French toast is a no-brainer. The syrup however was made with banana slices caramelized in butter, maple syrup and raisins.

Lunch:

PB&J with homemade Applesauce

Just so you know, almost every time I have a sandwich I also munch on an extra slice of bread. I love bread. I’ve missed it so much.

Dinner:

I’m going to be honest….I’m thinking back a few days here and cannot remember what I had for dinner on this day. I have no picture of whatever it was, so I am assuming I went out and was silly and forgot my camera. I am shocked that I can’t remember.

Which is another prime example of why I feel I may have a totally new problem. I can no longer remember what I ate from day to day. I used to know EVERYTHING that I put into my stomach. I feel it’s a slippery slope from there to not even remembering what I ate. A slope back to being fat. I need to fix this immediately…

 

Trying to calm down

What a shit day.

My eating suffered due to my shit day and my head that just won’t shut up.

I need to take myself back. All of YOU have encouraged me to do so. So I will do it.

I also want to make clear that none of my guys ENCOURAGE me to not eat. None of them do. If any of them found out that I wasn’t eating because of them, they would kill me (especially #3, he’s the only one that knows the extent of my problem though…). It’s something I do to myself, not out of spite to myself or because I “want to lose weight” because of him or anything, it has nothing to do with that. My emotions tend to rule my stomach is all. Butterflies have always (my entire life) kept me from eating. Sadness has always kept me from eating. These are not new developments. But it does seem more extreme now as food in general has a different meaning to me now than it ever had in the past.

I will not let all of you down.

Breakfast:

Whole Wheat Banana Pancakes with Strawberry Compote

Adapted from:

http://www.blissfullydelicious.com/2009/01/banana-sour-cream-pancakes/

Ingredients

1- 1/2 cups flour (I used all whole wheat)
3 tablespoons sugar
2 teaspoons baking powder
1 1/2 teaspoons kosher salt
1/2 cup sour cream (I omitted this and used a smashed banana instead)
3/4 cup plus 1 tablespoon milk
2 extra-large eggs
1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
1 teaspoon grated lemon zest
Unsalted butter
2 ripe bananas, diced, plus extra for serving (My bananas are too ripe to slice, so I used them in the batter above instead)
Pure maple syrup (Made a compote instead)

Directions

Sift together the flour, sugar, baking powder, and salt. In a separate bowl, whisk together the sour cream, milk, eggs, vanilla, and lemon zest. Add the wet ingredients to the dry ones, mixing only until combined.

Melt 1 tablespoon of butter in a large skillet over medium-low heat until it bubbles. Ladle the pancake batter into the pan to make 3 or 4 pancakes. Distribute a rounded tablespoon of bananas on each pancake. Cook for 2 to 3 minutes, until bubbles appear on top and the underside is nicely browned. Flip the pancakes and then cook for another minute until browned. Wipe out the pan with a paper towel, add more butter to the pan, and continue cooking pancakes until all the batter is used. Serve with sliced bananas, butter and maple syrup.

Yield: 12 pancakes

Strawberry compote:

1T Water
1T Sugar
4 big Strawberries sliced

Throw it all in a saucepan and let it simmer until desire thickness is reached.

*Since I used all whole wheat and banana instead of sour cream, these were a bit dense, but otherwise completely delicious. I didn’t use all the batter I made. And then I didn’t eat half of my last pancake. But I think I did pretty good considering I don’t really feel like eating. They were very yummy. I also toned down the amount of syrup I made, I tend to make a LOT of sauce/syrup for whatever I’m making and feel I need to quit this.

Lunch:

In a way I guess I sorta skipped lunch. I ate breakfast at like 10:30, and then had to leave for work at about 12:45, so I wasn’t exactly hungry for lunch yet.

Dinner:

I tried to eat a cup of chili at work. I got most of the way through it, I probably ate about 4/5’s of it. But threw out the rest. I was full and starting to feel a little sick.

 

One of the new girls at work may have a problem with an ED. We talked a lot today. She is really cool. I hope I can help her. I really want to. I feel like I’m not in much of a position to help people right now. Here I’ve got G on a diet not eating enough calories and this other girl who tells me shes had binge problems and that she thinks she is too thin and should gain weight…I want to save the world. But I have to save myself first. It’s conplicated.

I just need to stop and breathe for 5 minutes. Just…stop and breathe…

Exercise: 4 mile walk, 8 hours running around retail job

 

Project “Ignore” continues!

I didn’t speak to #1 all day again. You know…too busy and all. Just REALLY really busy…

I got my kitchen table today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love it so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The guys at the furniture store who helped me load it were INCREDIBLY impressed that I can back up a car. I swooped right back to the loading dock and jumped out of my car and they said “DAMN! Normally we’re standing here waiting forever while the customer takes their sweet time trying to figure out how to back up a car…” I felt…competent.

I get my table then head to another store to buy some gold paint.

When I get home I unbox the pieces and get to painting!

It’s oil based paint. So it’s taking forever and a half to try. Grrr….it looks beautiful though! I mean, I didn’t do very good, but it’s got that “rustic” look, so it’s just what I wanted.

I go on a walk to wait for the pieces to dry. It was my intent to buy supplies. I got as far as my work to refill my water and as I was talking with my 3rd favorite person there, I see PFH#3 over his shoulder purchasing something in the cafe. I get so many butterflies, I have to go…I also realize I forgot to grab a coupon I needed for what I wanted to buy. Shit…I guess I’ll just walk back home.

On my walk back G passes me and waves and whatnot. This makes my day wonderful.

I go to grab the table legs and the pieces are STILL not completely dry. But I can’t wait any longer. I put the thing together (carefully I might add, you try putting together a table without touching the legs really hehe) and stand it up beautifully on my own. I love it so much. It completes my kitchen and is so gorgeous.

I make dinner, but since the legs are still wet on my table, I don’t get to cook on it or eat on it tonight.

Breakfast:

BEST COBBLER IN THE WORLD!!!!

Adapted slightly from: http://www.kitchenlane.com/2012/06/very-berry-fruit-streusel-cobbler-and.html

Generous 3/4 cup granulated sugar
2 tablespoons cornstarch
3 cup red raspberries
1 cup black raspberries or blackberries
1 cup dark sweet or sour pitted cherries
2 1/2 cups pitted and chopped red or black plum, or apricots, or peeled, pitted and chopped peaches (or a combination)
2 to 4 teaspoons lemon juice
Dough
1 2/3 cups unbleached all-purpose white flour
1/3 cup packed light brown sugar
1/3 cup granulated sugar
3/4 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon salt
7 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted and cooled
1 large egg, lightly beaten
Ice cream or whipped cream for serving

Preheat oven to 375 degrees F. Lightly coat a 9-inch by 13-inch flat baking dish with nonstick spray. For filling: Thoroughly stir together granulated sugar and cornstarch in a large bowl. Gently stir in the berries, fruit and lemon juice until well blended. Spread mixture evenly in baking dish.

For dough: Thoroughly stir together the flour, brown and granulated sugar, baking powder, and salt in a medium bowl. Add the melted butter, stirring until incorporated. Add the egg, stirring with a fork until mixture is blended and clumped. Sprinkle the clumps of dough mixture evenly over fruit.

Bake in middle third of oven for 35 to 45 minutes, or until well browned and bubbly. Test the center with a tooth pick; the particles should look dry and crumbly, not wet or gummy. Transfer to wire rack and let cool to barely warm or cooled before serving. Serve with ice cream or whipped cream.

Makes about 10 servings.

*I used cherries, strawberries and blueberries. And my friend, this was the VERY BEST cobbler I’ve ever made. It was so crazy ridiculous that I ate the entire thing. I didn’t even care. Hehe. DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lunch:

Just a PB&J, it was boring so I didn’t take a picture. I like to show you guys exciting food.

Dinner:

Chicken, Rutabaga and Mushrooms in Banana Coconut Sauce

Dear god I’m in love with rutabaga.

I knew it would go well even with this sweet dish since it is a root vegetable and inherently sweet. I reference this recipe that I’ve used before. It was delicious! I know you think it sounds gross. But really, it was SO good. I am a bit weird with food though, nothing is gross to me.

 

When I got online later this night, PFH#1 tried messaging me again. I sort of figured I didn’t want to burn any bridges QUITE yet, so I answered him. Jesus H did THIS open a fucking floodgate. All of a sudden he wants to talk to me. I couldn’t get the guy to shut the hell up. It’s great how ignoring someone really brings out the crazy in them. It was nice to feel appreciated.

He tries telling me yet again that he wants to see me. I tell him pretty bluntly that he’s full of shit. I say “You say that, but your follow-through is crap.” He claims work keeps him from seeing me. I said “Oh no, that’s ok…I’ve got another man willing to make time for me and take me to do all the things that you promise but never do. I’m CERTAIN he doesn’t mind filling in for you.” I do in fact name names. I want him to know who it is that is taking his place. I’m not interested in games. He needs to know that he is losing me and exactly who he is losing me to. He seems upset by this. He tells me he will make it happen. I say “I’m waiting.”

Not for long I’m not.

Movie date and work all night tomorrow with PFH#3. I’m so excited I could just scream.

I will also let him know that the invitation is there to stay any time he’d like. He will not take me up on it. He would feel like he is taking advantage of me. This is OK. It’s not about sex. It’s simply about the invitation and getting those gears turning. Getting him thinking.

Exercise: 4 mile walk

Happy post

I just wanted to say, G appreciates me so much.

We stayed up till about 1:30 AM talking on the computer.

First he asked me out on Wednesday before we work all night together. It will be the perfect day.

Second, he bought me a grill. He is out of his damn mind. Just a small charcoal one, not like a huge fancy gas grill or anything (I already want to kill him for spending money on me at ALL let alone him even THINKING about buying me something as expensive as that…), and I insisted he shouldn’t have done that. He basically says “Damage is done! If you want it, it’s yours.” ^#$)%&^%(*@!!! OF COURSE I WANT IT! It is something I can cook food on, and cooking is the most important thing in the world to me. Completely not fair to buy me something I couldn’t possibly turn down (as long as he barely paid anything for it…he keeps telling me it was insanely inexpensive and that is why he picked it up for me).

I hope he knows I already like him. He doesn’t have to buy my love. I adore him just as he is. He doesn’t have to buy me things, he doesn’t have to lose weight (although I know he really wants to just to be healthier…same reason he quit smoking years ago), he doesn’t have to take me out to movies or dinner (I am happiest just sitting in the car after work talking to him for hours…) All I’d ever require from him is his love.

I almost fell asleep at the computer so many times, but kept the volume up so when he messaged me, I would hear it. I didn’t want to miss anything. I wanted to stay up so badly.

Then I asked him on a date for the 29th. It’s actually a work group outing for a mutual friend’s birthday. We’re all going to see a screening of Monty Python’s “Meaning of Life”: at a downtown theater and I totally told him “You’re going and you’re going to have fun whether you like it or not. Because you’ll be with me. And I’m awesome.” He could not argue with this reasoning, so he will be attending. There will be dinner and drinks at a TBD restaurant afterwards so maybe I can get him drunk and get him to stay here with me that night. Actually does he work the next day…*checks schedule*…shitballs, he works at 8:30 AM…well all the more reason for him to just stay here.

Then he ALSO wanted to be completely certain I was attending ANOTHER work-related get together (co-worker’s retirement party), and as such we have signed our names as guests one right after the other on the list. So really we plan on going to that together too. So that’s 3 dates.

The idea of someone making lots of time for me is pretty awesome as fuck. I like being cared about.

Breakfast:

Sugar-free Banana Blueberry Baked Oatmeal

Sometimes I’m just in the mood for something with a bit less calories.

Taken from: http://www.alaskafromscratch.com/2012/06/13/blueberry-banana-baked-oatmeal/

Ingredients

  • 2 ripe bananas, sliced
  • 3/4c blueberries
  • 1c rolled oats (not quick)
  • 1/2t cinnamon
  • 1/2t baking powder
  • 1/4t salt
  • 1c milk
  • 1 egg
  • 3T butter, melted
  • 1/4c pure maple syrup
  • 1t vanilla
  • 1/4c walnuts, roughly chopped

Instructions

  1. Preheat oven to 375. Grease a 1-1/2 quart casserole dish.
  2. Lay the bananas in a single layer in the bottom of the dish. Sprinkle 1/2c of the blueberries over bananas.
  3. In a bowl, combine the oats, cinnamon, baking powder, and salt. Stir and sprinkle over fruit.
  4. Whisk milk, egg, butter, syrup, and vanilla. Pour over oats, coating evenly. Sprinkle remaining blueberries and walnuts over top. Bake for 35-45 minutes or until golden and bubbly and set in the center.
  5. Serve with milk.

Notes

Leftovers reheat well the next day. Store covered in refrigerator.

Additional toppings might include: brown sugar, additional maple syrup, more walnuts, milk/cream, etc.

*Interesting preparation, not my favorite way to do it I think. It turned out a bit on the soupy side, but still really good. The pictures at least look really pretty.

Lunch:

The other half of that cheesy garlic bread.

Dinner:

Strawberry Balsamic Yogurt Chicken with Roasted Rutabaga

Out of absolutely insane curiosity, I bought a rutabaga today. I wanted it. I’d never tried one and I wanted it. So I took it, I roasted it for 40 minutes with olive oil, salt and pepper, and finished with a little parsley. AHHHHH SOOOOO GOOD! I will be buying much more of this later.

I also made the balsamic strawberry yogurt chicken I always make, but roasted the strawberries first in the oven with some butter and brown sugar. Fantastic.

 

The only thing that could possibly make me happier right now would be NOT having to work tomorrow…because it means being there without G. And I am miserable there without him.

I worry about him slightly, as he asks my dieting advice a lot and tells me the number of cals he eats a day. The number is generally not over 1,000.

I don’t like this.

First of all, he’s a man. He needs more calories. Secondly, yeah he’s short. He’s only 5’8, I am taller than him in my heels by a good 2 inches. But he still HAS to need more than 1,000 cals a day..I think he needs at VERY LEAST 1,600. I worry that he wants to be what *he hopes that I want* so badly that he hurts himself. My dearest darling…I like you just the way you are. Slightly overweight and all. Because that’s not what matters to me.

I’m learning so very much from him.

PFH#1 did not talk to me all day. I plan on ignoring him for a while till I calm down a bit.

One more chance…

PFH#1 has one more chance to win me over. I’m thinking his chances are not very good right now next to how amazing PFH#3 is.

He claimed he wanted to see me today and that he would make time for me. He ended up working all day. “Couldn’t” make time.

How is it that a man who lives 45 minutes away has more time for me than one who lives 10 minutes away?

I’m feeling far more appreciated by #3 right now. And I need to feel appreciated.

I have a date that was planned literally a month in advance with #1 this Saturday. If this falls through on his end for ANY REASON, I will be focusing all of my attention on #3.

Nicole, I know, will be happy to hear this. She has been routing for #3 since day one.

Breakfast:

Parsnip Banana Muffins Pt. 2

AB’s recipe: http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/alton-brown/parsnip-muffins-recipe/index.html

Ingredients

  • 1-ounce sliced almonds
  • Nonstick spray
  • 8 1/2 ounces all-purpose flour
  • 1 teaspoon baking powder
  • 3/4 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/2 teaspoon freshly grated nutmeg
  • 1/2 teaspoon kosher salt
  • 3 whole eggs
  • 3/4 cup plain whole milk yogurt (I used 1 mashed banana instead)
  • 1/4 cup vegetable oil
  • 8 ounces sugar
  • 10 ounces grated parsnips

Directions

Place the almonds in a single layer in a pie pan and place in oven. Heat the oven to 375 degrees F. Bake the nuts until lightly toasted, approximately 20 minutes while the oven heats. Meanwhile, spray a standard 12-cup muffin tin with the nonstick spray and set aside.

Combine the flour, baking powder, baking soda, nutmeg, and salt in the bowl of a food processor, and process for 5 seconds.

Whisk the eggs, yogurt, vegetable oil, and sugar in a large mixing bowl until combined. Add the flour mixture and parsnips, and fold with a spatula until all of the flour is moistened, there will be some lumps. Divide the mixture evenly among the muffin cups using a level 2 1/2-ounce disher or 1/3 cup measure. Sprinkle the top of each muffin with the toasted almonds. Bake for 20 to 25 minutes or until the muffins reach an internal temperature of 210 degrees F and are golden brown, rotating halfway through baking. If needed, use a small knife or offset spatula to loosen the muffins and immediately remove them from the tin to a cooling rack, and cool for 15 minutes. Serve warm. Store completely cooled muffins in an airtight container for up to 3 days.

*I did this all AS DIRECTED BY WEIGHT kids and I’ll tell you the fuck what, it was SO MUCH BETTER. I will be using weight from now on with my baking. I can’t even describe how much better these were than the last time I did them simply by WEIGHING the ingredients! WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lunch:

I did not have lunch. Instead I went on a massive 7 mile walk around and bought some supplies. I was bored waiting for something, ANYTHING to happen today. So I went out and made my own adventure.

Dinner:

Beef Fried Rice

I made this marinade and let my “mystery meat” sit in it for 2 hours:

Taken from: http://allrecipes.com/recipe/meat-marinade/

Ingredients

  • 1/2 cup olive oil
  • 1/4 cup soy sauce
  • 1/4 cup Worcestershire sauce
  • 3 tablespoons prepared mustard
  • 2/3 cup lemon juice
  • salt and pepper to taste
  • garlic powder to taste
  • 1 dash onion powder

Directions

  1. Use a flat container large enough to hold meat in a single layer. Combine oil, soy sauce, Worcestershire sauce, mustard and lemon juice. Season with garlic powder, onion powder, salt and pepper. Place meat in the marinade and turn to coat both sides.
  2. Cover and refrigerate for at least 2 hours, shaking or turning meat occasionally.

I used this marinade as a sauce by adding a little cornstarch to the bag and mixing it up. I cut all of the meat into strips and threw it into a stir fry along with carrots, peas, corn and onion. Then I added some cooked brown rice and the marinade and let that heat through. The meat was SO tender!!! YES!!!! It was awesome! I’m learning a lot about meats!

 

It’s going to be a long week until Wednesday when I get to work with G again. I hope I don’t get depressed. I’m trying so hard. I will offer that he stay after he takes me home. I already know neither of us works the next day. He will refuse, but he will know the offer is there. Always. Someday he will take me up on it. I am not bluffing. I never do. If he DOES take me up on it, I may have an interesting story to tell all of you on Thursday.

Exercise: 7 mile walk

COUCH DAY! (For real this time!)

I finally got my couches!!! YAY!!!!!!

My same friend came back to help me, who is AMAZING and cool and all my friends are cool.

So now I have places for people to sit.

Nothing to do or watch or anything when they get here…but at least there’s something to sit on.

AND I LOVE THEM!!!!

Maybe I’ll take pics for you kids.

Breakfast:

Baked Banana Oatmeal

Adapted from: http://www.katheats.com/favorite-foods/baked-banana-oatmeal

1) Bananas

Slice 2 bananas. You can add these however you like – in with the wet ingredients or arranged in a pattern on the top (and/or bottom!) of the dish. (You’ll need an additional mashed banana for the wet ingredients below)

2) Combine the dry ingredients:

  • 2 cups rolled oats
  • 1 tsp baking powder
  • 1/4 tsp kosher salt

3) Combine the wet ingredients:

  • 1 egg, beat
  • 1 mashed banana
  • 1.5 cups skim milk
  • 1 tsp vanilla
  • ADDED: Orange zest

4) Pour the wet ingredients into the dry. Mix well.

5) Line an 8″ pan (square or round) with parchment paper (for easy removal and cutting!).

6) Layer some banana slices on the bottom. Pour batter into pan. Top with remaining banana slices.

7) Pop into a 375* oven for about 26 minutes.

After 26 minutes, increase heat to broil, sprinkle oatmeal with 1 heaping tbsp brown sugar and broil for 3-4 minutes.

For the topping, I added walnuts and coconut.

*This would have been fabulous had I not managed to burn the top during the broiling phase. I’m just not used to my oven yet and it was the first time I’d used the broiler. Oops. Well, I just scraped off the burned pieces and ate it anyway, it was still really good! Just not as fantastic as it could have been. Damn…

Lunch:

PB&J + Apple. My usual quick lunch when I have a lot going on.

Dinner:

Sweet Potato Sage Pasta Sauce on Vegetable Linguini

OK Jesus H I’d better remember how I made this because it was SO good…amounts? Not so much…ingredients I can at least list…

Butter
Garlic
Onions
Olive Oil

I made a brown butter base with those ingredients. When the butter browned I added:

Chopped Tomato
Diced Green Pepper
Fresh chopped Sage
A little fresh chopped Lemon Mint
Pureed Sweet Potato (with a little milk)
Shredded Monterrey Jack Cheese
S&P to taste
Water
Brown Sugar

I simmered all that together for a little while, sort of let it reduce down to the consistency I wanted. It was INFUCKINGCREDIBLE. I am amazing. I love sage, and its been a while since I’ve made a good sauce with sage. Well, brown butter and sweet potato go AMAZING with sage, so I figured I’d sort of combine all of them. This did NOT disappoint.

Now I get to wake up at 5 AM to go to work tomorrow. Not a problem…..except a certain Potential Future Husband #1 is keeping me awake online being all sweet to me….

I told you he’s trying damn hard to win me back.

It’s working.

I do have a movie date with Potential Future Husband #3 tomorrow though.

It’s weird being single again.

I’m enjoying it.