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Pain

I don’t know what happened.

One second I was helping a customer and the next I’m crying on the floor in MASSIVE amounts of pain.

I’m pretty used to foot cramps. I get them every single morning. I know how to fix them and they don’t really bother me at all.

This was a thousand times worse. This cramp left me completely debilitated. I couldn’t stand. My brain couldn’t focus because I was in so much pain. My customers didn’t know what to do for me. My coworkers didn’t know what to do for me. I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t get the pain to stop. I can always get these to stop. Why won’t this stop?

I cried. I never cry. I hate showing any form of weakness.

As much as I wished he was there to just touch me and tell me I’d be okay, I’m glad he wasn’t there to see me cry.

This happened 3 times.

I kept having to get help at the cash registers because I would fall in a crumpled mess on the floor and literally could do nothing at all about it. I almost messed up a huge transaction and had to get my drawer counted because I was so blinded with pain that I fucked up. When I could finally stand, I would walk around the store a few times until the pain subsided enough that I could stand in one spot without aggravating it. Then go back to work.

I really wish I could understand what was going on. I’ve never ever had anything like that happen to me before. I didn’t know what to tell my managers. Everyone was incredibly understanding and did their best to help.

Breakfast:

Southwestern-style Scrambled Eggs

Eggs scrambled with fresh corn, tomatoes, mushrooms, chives, garlic and chili powder topped with shredded cheddar cheese and salsa.

Lunch:

Peach Cucumber Salad

This was taken from a website, but I seem to have lost it…its super easy though! Just dice up some cucumber, slice up some peaches, chop up some fresh mint and basil and toss everything with lemon juice! I also added a pinch of salt. VERY refreshing!

And I don’t know why, but my foot cramp lead to a small binge.

Not anything substantial. But enough to be slightly annoying.

I bought a Mediterranean quiche at work and a banana. I thought the potassium might help my foot. I then decided I wanted something from the vending machine. So I bought a small package of peanut butter cookies. Then I wanted another cookie. So I bought a big chocolate chunk cookie from the cafe. Then I decided I wanted a Hostess Apple Pie from the vending machine. Hm. Okay. Well. It could be worse I guess. And when I went home a few hours later I had some granola and yogurt with peaches. I stopped eating when I was full and didn’t want any more. It was nowhere near the point of uncomfortable or a real binge. But all in all I think I was just in physical pain and wanted to make myself feel better with sweets.

I probably won’t have breakfast in the morning.

 

Paris

G desperately wants to go to France.

He will never go.

I know how normal people work. They say they want to do something. They dream about it. They talk about it. They long for it. But they never do it. They don’t think they can.

I will never understand why people do this to themselves.

Why can’t you?

Why the fuck can’t you?

“I don’t have the money.”

“I don’t have the time.”

“I can’t leave work for that long.”

“-Insert significant other’s name here- doesn’t want to.”

Excuses, excuses, fucking lame ass excuses.

This is the only goddamn life you have people. You don’t get a second chance. Do you really want to look back on your life and regret all the things you COULD HAVE DONE had you JUST DONE THEM?

I am taking G to Paris.

I bought a sewing machine not knowing how to sew with dreams of being self-employed. I learned how. I bought a motorcycle without knowing how to ride, but a strong desire to hit that open road with the wind blowing through my hair. I took classes and DID it. I have traveled all over the US on no money. I have been to London being self-employed, barely able to afford rent half the time. I have met all my heroes. My life is a massive adventure.

G pointed this out to me at the movie the other night.

I told him that it doesn’t just come to me. I have to make the choice to live. YOU have to go to IT, adventures won’t just happen to you. If you really want something, you have to just make the decision to DO it. I haven’t failed yet. I’ve succeeded in everything I’ve tried because I have FAITH in myself and my ability to learn and do.  And I’ve no regrets.

I’ve been looking at flight prices and B&B’s in Paris. It’s not even all that expensive. It’s completely doable. Sure I’ll have to work my ass off and save every penny I can for maybe a year (depending on if I plan on paying for the both of us, which I know he won’t let me), but I CAN DO IT. If he wants to pitch in, he is more than welcome to. But I will be giving him a timeline and very soon possibly an exact date (that depends on the flexibility of the airline prices and if I check every day) and am saying “I am taking you to Paris.”

He will try to protest.

I will explain to him that he’s the luckiest man in the world because he has me. Without me, he won’t go. With me in his life, anything is possible. Because that’s exactly what I believe about myself.

I said something to him the other day that he wants to get engraved so he can see it every day. He’d mentioned how he loves to write, but the industry has gotten him down and he hasn’t submitted any of his writing or even had anyone read it in nearly a decade. I told him he shouldn’t let that stop him from doing what he loves.

“Holding back passion is the first step to unhappiness.”

He told me I am 100% right and that I am an inspiration to him.

It’s nice to be someone’s muse.

I demanded to read his writings. He will be giving me copies soon.

Breakfast:

Traditional French Clafoutis

Quite obviously, I’ve been inspired today with French cooking. I’ve done this before, but not the traditional way with cherries. I happen to have them today.

Taken from: http://www.joyofbaking.com/breakfast/CherryClafoutis.html

Cherry Clafoutis Batter:

1/2 cup (65 grams) all purpose flour

1/4 teaspoon salt

2 large eggs

2 tablespoosn (25 grams) granulated white sugar

3/4 cup (180 ml) milk (whole (full fat) or reduced fat)

1 tablespoon melted butter

1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract

Cherries:

3/4 pound (350 grams) fresh sweet cherries, pitted

1 tablespoon (13 grams) unsalted butter

1 tablespoon (15 grams) granulated white sugar

Preheat the oven to 425 degrees F (220 degrees C) and place the rack in the center of the oven.  Wash the cherries, remove the stems and pits. 

In your food processor or blender (or you can do it by hand with a wire whisk) place the flour, salt, eggs, sugar, milk, butter, and vanilla extract. Process for about 60 seconds, scraping down the sides of the bowl as needed. Once the batter is completely smooth, let it rest while you prepare the fruit. 

In a 9- inch (23 cm) heavy ovenproof skillet (preferably non stick), melt the butter over medium heat making sure the melted butter coats the bottom and sides of the pan. When the butter is bubbling, add the pitted cherries, and cook until the cherries have softened a bit and are coated with butter (about 2 minutes). Then sprinkle the cherries with the sugar and cook until the sugar has dissolved and turns into a syrup (1 – 2 minutes). Pour the batter over the cherries and bake for about 18-20 minutes or until the clafoutis is puffed, set, and golden brown around the edges. Do not open the oven door until the end of the baking time or it may collapse. Serve immediately with a dusting of confectioners sugar and yogurt, creme fraiche or softly whipped cream.

Serves about 4 people as a breakfast/brunch dish

*Fantastic! Easy. RIDICULOUSLY easy. Custardy, sweet (but not “too sweet” for people who are into that hehe), and almost too simple for how good it tastes. I’m hoping one day I can make this for breakfast for G in Paris.

Lunch:

Finished off that turkey. Banana. Yum.

Dinner:

Sweet Potato, Parsnip and Pea Stir Fry

This was something I totally made up. I sauteed sweet potato, parsnips and peas with onion, diced tomato and a lot of garlic in some olive oil. I added milk, soy sauce, tomato paste and a splash of lemon juice and seasoned it with Garam Masala, Turmeric and a little Allspice. Finished with about 1 T of brown sugar and S&P. Absolutely wonderful. I put it on some sticky rice with rice vinegar on it. Really wonderful. Outdid myself once again!

 

I got a project done for my store and as a reward got to stream 2 episodes of Food Network Star. Tomorrow I get to work with G all night. I am incredibly excited about this. I’ve never been so looking forward to going to work before. Even if I don’t get to talk to him most of the night, I will be very content just knowing that he is there.

I hope I amaze the men in my life as much as they amaze me.

Loved

All of my boys have been making me feel so loved lately. They’re just so fucking amazing. Uhg. My heart just pours out to every single one of them in different ways.

PFH#1 spent the entire day just sending me the most thoughtful messages about how much he thinks about me and how beautiful I am. Which just made me crumble inside. I made sure he knew I would always make time for him. I may get to see him tomorrow. We will see…

PFH#3 made another movie date with me for Sunday where he’s offered to pay and whatnot. I told him he of course did not have to do that and that he is by far the sweetest, coolest person I know, but it’s so far out of his way to come get me and he should save his money for something more substantial than taking me out all the time…he answered with “So is that a ‘yes’?”

I often wonder if people think he is my father when we’re seen together.

In my heels I am taller than him.

On his Facebook he reposted a picture from something that started with “Seniors for…” HOLY CRAP, Jesus H, G, you are NOT that old!

We must be quite a sight.

He’s also been eating better, getting exercise, asking me diet advice…not so sure it’s good to ask a recovering bulimic for dieting advice, but fuck I’ll tell you what…I DO know how to get the job done.

I believe he is trying to impress me as well.

#2 also started working out because I do.

All my boys want to be healthier for me. I mean, really in the end, how cool is that right? All of them want to be better people to impress me.

I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

Breakfast:

I found a place nearby where I can pick blackberries. YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!

I referenced this recipe. Don’t be fooled by my picture’s beautiful exterior! Inside for some reason this did not cook through at ALL! I left it in the oven for a good extra half an hour and STILL it was a soupy mess on the inside. All in all it still tasted fantastic, so I don’t count this as a complete fail. And it did cook about halfway through…bah. Stupid new oven.

Lunch:

I HAD MY FIRST KIND BAR TODAY!!! I didn’t have my camera as I was at work, but for lunch I had a coconut almond KIND bar and a cup of clam chowder soup!

Missed G again at work.

Dinner:

“Brunch” Stuffed Green Peppers

It’s pretty amazing to me how anyone else would look in my fridge and think it is completely empty and I have nothing to eat. Yet I will turn out an amazing meal such as this out of what I have!

Adapted from: http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/paula-deen/brunch-stuffed-peppers-recipe/index.html

Ingredients

  • 4 yellow bell peppers (I used green)
  • 1 cup frozen country style hash browns, thawed (Did not use this)
  • 1/2 (16-ounce) package bacon, cooked and crumbled (Also cut this)
  • 3 large eggs
  • 3/4 cup shredded Cheddar-Monterey Jack cheese blend, plus more for garnish
  • 3/4 cup whole milk
  • 1/2 cup biscuit mix
  • 1/4 cup sour cream
  • 2 tablespoons chopped green onion
  • 1/2 teaspoon salt
  • 1/4 teaspoon ground black pepper
  • ADDED: Frozen corn, chopped tomato and diced carrots
  • Paprika

Directions

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.

Remove the top 1/2-inch of each pepper. Discard the tops and seeds. Arrange the peppers, cut side up, in an 8 by 8-inch glass baking dish. Fill the bottom of each pepper evenly with hash browns and bacon.

In a large bowl, combine the eggs, cheese, milk, baking mix, sour cream, green onion, salt, and pepper. Whisk until combined. Evenly distribute the egg mixture into each pepper. Bake until a wooden pick inserted in center comes out dry, about 45 minutes. Remove from the oven, garnish with cheese and serve immediately.

*I didn’t have any baking mix so I just made some. I mixed some flour (both AP and wheat) with some baking powder, salt, sugar and cut in a little butter. Made this with that. Nothing stops me! I am invincible in the kitchen! This was wonderful! You cannot go wrong with veggies and eggs! AND they even baked properly in my oven! FINALLY! I ate all of it. Hehe. I’m not going to be much hungry for breakfast after all that food though.

 

Tomorrow I’m going to do a little shopping, buy some black paint, fix up this entertainment center thing I found in the garage and drag it up to my apartment. I don’t care if I have to do it by myself. I will get that fucker up here. Maybe a date with PFH#1? Maybe…

Exercise: 4 mile walk, 8 hours at retail job, 1/2 hour yoga

Meatless….Tuesday!

Playing catch-up on my Meatless Tuesday!

Which has actually sucked a lot.

Especially with a machine that I’m not used to using.

BUT I get mine back tomorrow! So life is THAT much better.

I worked all day on a project that gave me guff at every turn. I wish things were just easy. But they never ever are. And you never really ever catch up. You just get a LITTLE bit closer to a point where you’re not tearing your hair out with overwhelment. I am at that point. But I’m sure it won’t be for long.

My good day yesterday is still making me smile today, so I think things will be alright.

I may weigh myself next Monday. I’m not sure that I should. I always weigh the least on the first day of my period, so its the one time a month I feel it is the most accurate. If I don’t do it on this day, it doesn’t get done. I did not weigh myself last month. My waist still measures the same. I don’t generally gain a lot of weight in my waist though, I gain it in my legs and butt. I like having a shapely butt, so I don’t care about that. But I miss my thin legs.

I wish it didn’t take having a disorder to keep them thin.

Breakfast:

Felt I needed a savory breakfast after a string of sweet ones. Here I just made a mushroom and green pepper omelet with garlic, diced onions and Italian seasoning. Shredded some mozzarella on top! Didn’t turn out too pretty, but tasted fantastic.

Lunch:

Chinese 5-spice Light Corn Chowder

I dunno what I did here. Sauteed some green peppers with some onion and frozen corn in some olive oil and butter. Added 1/2 cup water and 1/2 cup 2% milk. Added some garlic, Chinese 5-Spice and rosemary. It would have been totally perfect if I didn’t accidentally boil it too hard while it was simmering. That curdled the milk a teeny tiny bit. Otherwise it tasted REALLY really good.

Dinner:

Fried Eggplant and Zucchini with Mushroom Tomato Sauce

I fried slices of eggplant and zucchini that I dredged in an egg/milk mixture and then a panko/cornstarch/flour/Italian seasoning/salt mixture in oil on my stove for about 4 minutes on each side, until brown. I made the sauce out of 1/2 cup crushed tomatoes, 1 T butter, 1/2 cup water, 1/4 of a tomato (diced), sliced mushrooms and onions and maybe more of that green pepper (can’t remember), garlic, olive oil, uh… whatever you’ve got, just throw it in and let it simmer for about half an hour.

The frying worked out AMAZINGLY this time. Everything was crispy on the outside and cooked on the inside. WOW. I mean just wow. And there was SO MUCH FOOD. I only used half of the sauce.

 

I finally FINALLY got back into doing my yoga, which makes me so incredibly happy. I’ve missed it SO very much. I got my Good Eats streaming on the computer and just put it in the windowsill while I stretch out! I can’t always hear it with all the traffic outside, but as long as I know its on, I always have a better yoga experience.

Exercise: 1/2 hour of yoga

My brother’s MP3 player

I am very proud of my brother’s taste in music. I know I have a LOT of influence in it. He knew that my MP3 player is pretty tiny and doesn’t hold a lot of music. So he gave me one of his old ones. I’ve kept all of his music on it as I know everything on it will be gold, even if I don’t already know it. I generally use it while I am at the gym. There are certain songs that will randomly pop up that just make me so proud and happy that it overwhelms me. Often they also remind me of a certain point in my life. This, paired with the fact that I have much adrenaline raging through me due to the nature of working out, I start to cry.

Songs on my brother’s MP3 player that have made me openly cry at the gym:

Simon & Garfunkel – “America”
Nine Inch Nails – “Terrible Lie”
Steve Burns – “Mighty Little Man”
REM – “At My Most Beautiful”
The Flaming Lips – “Waiting for Superman”

If anyone has a certain connection themselves to any of these songs, I’d love to hear your story! Then I will share mine as well.

Breakfast:

Another cereal day. I had to leave immediately after making breakfast to go purchase supplies. I had a LOT of work to do today.

Lunch:

Straciatella (Italian Egg Drop Soup)

Taken from: http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/cooking-live/straciatella-italian-egg-drop-soup-recipe/index.html

Ingredients

Directions

In a large saucepan bring stock to a boil over moderate heat. In a bowl beat together the eggs, Parmesan and parsley. Reduce the heat to low and drizzle eggs into stock, gently stirring. Simmer, stirring, just until eggs are set. Season with salt and pepper.

*Did I totally screw this up? Well…not totally. But it was still wrong. It at least didn’t look like little balls of scrambled egg in liquid. These…ALMOST look like strands of egg like it should look. Hehe. Bah! It still tasted awesome! That’s what matters! ^_^

Dinner:

My brother made these gorgeous looking quesadillas with cheese, mushrooms and tomatoes and of COURSE I forgot to take pics. Dammit. Grrr….I don’t know where my head is.

 

I hope to be adding to the list of songs that make me cry soon. Being so happy that I cry is always an awesome feeling to me.

When was the last time you were so happy that you cried?

Exercise: 1/2 hour of yoga, 2 mile walk

Living with others and disordered eating

First of all, YAY I finally got to cook myself some foodstuffs and so therefore remembered to take a couple of pictures! Huzzah!! So today I actually have something to show for!

I also wanted to add that I am SO SO glad that I am much better. I cannot IMAGINE living here and still being disordered. It would be the friggin death of me. Even though they are actually really REALLY good with portion sizes and healthy ingredients, I would still die of constant anxiety attacks. “What did he put in this? Is there milk? Butter? How much of it? HOW MANY CALORIES ARE IN THIS?? How much rice did I just take? Does that look like a cup or a cup and a half? I can’t put some BACK, they’d know something was wrong. Oh no, she put cream in my coffee, she knows I USED to take cream in my coffee…I shouldn’t drink this but I don’t want to be a rude houseguest. He made me eggs and toast, what did he fry the egg in? How much of it? Did he put butter on this toast? I’m sure this bread has twice the amount of calories as my ‘diet’ bread…and he gave me 2 SLICES?” And the inner dialogue would go on and on and on and on until my brain would absolutely explode with anxiety. This was why I started cooking. So I could control every single little minute detail of EVERYTHING that went into my food. When I couldn’t do that, I couldn’t eat something without being INCREDIBLY upset and anxious.

That was me a year ago.

This is me now: “Thank you so much for making me dinner! I really appreciate it! This looks amazing! Why yes,  I would love to share a beer with you! That was absolutely delicious! Thanks again!”

And the inner dialogue matches the outer dialogue perfectly.

I love living here.

Breakfast:

Cheesy Mushroom and Egg Casserole

Taken from: http://www.turkishfoodandrecipes.com/2009/01/cheesy-mushroom-egg-casserole-mantar-ve.html

½ lb mushrooms, brushed and sliced
2 tbsp butter/olive oil
1-2 pairs of green onions, chopped (optional)
3 eggs, beaten
1 cup milk
½ tbsp starch
½ cup crumbled feta/ Mexican cheese
½ tsp any kind of seasoning
½ tsp salt to taste

In a skillet, sauté mushrooms with butter over medium heat, till all the water evaporates. Then stir in green onions and sauté over low medium for 1-2 minutes.
Meanwhile dissolve starch in milk and add salt, eggs and seasoning. Mix them all.
Preheat the oven to 350-375F (180-190 C) and place mushrooms in a Pyrex or baking dish and sprinkle feta/Mexican Cheese over them. Finally pour egg-milk mixture and stir gently with a fork to distribute mushrooms and cheese evenly in egg mixture.
Bake for 25-30 minutes, till the surface turns light brown.
Serve Cheesy Mushroom Egg Casserole warm.
ENJOY

*I used goat’s cheese for the crumbled cheese in this, it was SO good! So so good! For the seasoning I used ground thyme, dried rosemary, s&p. I had no idea rosemary and goat’s cheese were lovers. But they are.

Lunch:

Tomato Goat’s Cheese soup with Carrots and Peas

1 cup Chicken Stock
1/2 cup Milk
I dunno….between 1/8 and 1/4 cup Goats Cheese
1/3 cup Peas
1 Carrot, sliced
1/2 Tomato, chopped
1 T Tomato Paste
2 slices Onion, chopped
1 clove Garlic, grated
A little butter and oil
Coriander
Cinnamon
S&P

Melt a small pat of butter along with a little oil in a pot. Cook the onion until translucent. Add garlic. Add peas and carrots. Allow to cook and brown a little. Add chopped tomatoes, cook until most of the liquid is cooked out. Add stock, paste, and spices. Simmer for about 5 minutes. Melt in goat’s cheese and simmer another 5 minutes or until carrots are tender. Serve up! I apparently have a thing for goat’s cheese today. If you don’t like it, I’m sure you can any kind of melty cheese!

Dinner:

We had leftovers of the tofu, carrot and potato curry from yesterday and I STILL forgot to take a picture! COME ON! 😦 I can’t be any more unreliable right now. Sad.

 

It’s so great to be able to enjoy food with people again. I definitely still eat healthy, as does my brother and sister-in-law. So it makes it easy to eat with them. Their portion sizes are always appropriate. When they serve up ice cream, they serve it in ramekins that only hold about a “standard serving”. They stay thin because they eat right and stay active. Not because they count every single calorie. If they can do it, I can too!

Does anyone out there have to eat with people that are hard to eat with? Like…do they chock everything full of butter? And then give you a WHOPPING plate of food enough for an entire family? I can’t imagine having to eat with people like that, I’d like to hear your family/roommate eating experiences.

Exercise: 1/2 hour of yoga, 7 mile or so walk

 

Superfast update

No time for blogging, must work…work all the time. Rest is for the weak and mortal.

The “exclusive rights” flirting in between has been incredibly pleasant though. I am now going to be making a pair of yoga pants that I am to eventually be oogled in, of course whilst doing my yoga.

Breakfast:

Smoked Sausage Omelette with sauteed Mushrooms and Onions and Sharp Cheddar

That was it! I think I also used a little garlic powder and S&P of course, but otherwise these were very simply seasoned. I chopped a little green onion on top. I always cook my fillings separately from the actual omelette and fold them in afterwards. I do usually melt the cheese onto the omelette while its still cooking in the pan. Incredible!

Lunch:



Green, Green Pea Soup with Ginger and Cilantro

Taken from: http://family.go.com/food/recipe-890651-green–green-pea-soup-with-ginger-and-cilantro-t/

Ingredients

2 tablespoons butter
1 smallish yellow onion, chopped
1 teaspoon each finely chopped ginger and garlic
kosher salt
3 large sprigs cilantro (plus more for garnish)
1 fist-sized potato, peeled and diced (I did not use potato)
1 quart chicken broth
1 16-ounce bag of frozen petite peas
1 cup coconut milk, shaken (plus more for drizzling)

Directions

Heat the butter in a soup pot over medium-low heat and sauté the onion, ginger, and garlic until the onion is just getting translucent, around 3 minutes. Add the cilantro, potato, and broth, bring to a boil over high heat, then reduce the heat and simmer, uncovered, until the potato is tender, around 20 minutes.
Add the peas and cook for another 6 or 7 minutes, until the peas are bright green and tender, then stir in the coconut milk (save a few whole peas for garnish, if you like).
Puree the soup with a stick blender or in batches, very carefully, in a blender (for a silky-smooth texture, you can pass it through a food mill). Taste the soup for salt and serve, garnished with the reserved peas, a few cilantro leaves and a drizzle of coconut milk.

*Even though I cut the potato, this was still VERY delicious. You will be tempted to add lemon juice. Don’t do it. I wanted to and was really glad that I did not. It lets the cilantro shine as the “citrus”-y ingredient. I can see how the potato would make it a little “creamier”, but I didn’t mind that it was a thinner soup. I always make everything creamy, I didn’t have to this time.

Dinner:

AGAIN forgot to take a picture. AGAIN! This is terrible and unacceptable. I am very sorry. I will do everything I can to remember tomorrow night! We had grilled brats with sauerkraut and grilled butternut squash with a little butter and brown sugar. Mmmmmm! SUPER yummy! Pretty too, of course no picture…I suck.

 

I finished off my Candy Corn and Cadbury Eggs. So now the only thing I have left is about 3/4 of a bag of Starburst Jelly Beans. After I am done with it I am done with candy for a while.

OH OH this is really cute! Last night “Future Husband #1” was telling me about how he wants to get back into working out and get healthy and all that. We had quite a lengthy conversation about it.  It’s so cute because I know he’s doing it to try and win me over, be more attractive to me, etc…since of course being fit and healthy are very important to me.

And it will work.

Exercise: 1/2 hour of yoga, Short 2 mile walk